November 20th, 2022
Short Story
Anime Relations: Shokugeki no Souma
I was traveling through these mountains just for fun, but at this point the snow turned from a light downfall to an unrelenting snowstorm with tall trees all around me. I ignored all the signs and thought I could handle it. The forecast said it would be fine, and I ignored my initial instincts that something was off when I arrived. I went with my sled dog, and he pulled me along the points where I got a bit tired. It started off really well, making good ground. Then, the moment I reached a sort of checkpoint, my sled dog ran away. That would be the last time I saw him. I don't know why he ran away, but maybe it was intuition on his part, as I would later find out. I thought, "I’ll be fine; I've done treks plenty of times without a dog."
The changes were slow, little by little, so little that you wouldn’t even notice if you weren’t paying attention. I didn’t even notice the white starting to build up at my feet as my movements started to get more sluggish. The cold started to sting my feet as it traveled up my body. The snowfall started to pick up, and I began to notice it more. The cold started to soak through my thick, but apparently not thick enough, clothes. Then I realized I was not able to recognize the trail anymore. I couldn't even see two feet ahead of me. "I’m lost," a thought that would be quickly replaced with "I need to turn back." My rational self would tell me I need to stay calm and make calculated movements, but honestly, I might not have even been thinking at all, and it might just be my narrator self inserting thoughts for me now.
My thoughts started to get more and more scrambled. I can barely think, but there is one thought that my mind keeps circling back to: "I need heat." This obsession with heat would never come out in normal circumstances. I would say I’m pretty good with the cold, but this is a different pain and a different cold all together. I don't think I can go another five minutes like this. It really is getting to me. I think back to the beginning and my sled dog, and I wish I could just run away from this cold like he did. The snowy storm blurs my vision as I wipe the little snow I can, off my goggles, which just gets replaced the moment I take the snow off. My hair is now just icicles that just torture me by sticking to my skin and making it even colder. I start to run into the trees around me until I collapse on one of them.
I reached into my bag and pulled out the matches I brought. Since the trees slightly covered the snowfall, I thought that maybe, just maybe, I could get a little fire going. There were a few stray branches, and I pulled as hard as I could to get them together. The cold made it hard to move, so just pulling branches together was a hard task. My hands were shaky, so I pulled out a few matches. I tried as hard as I could to grip them to get any type of hold, then, in one violent motion, I lit it in total desperation. It was hot. I was almost tempted to let it just burn down to my fingertips, but alas, I tried to light the fire, and it worked. Now it doesn’t seem completely hopeless. I thought I could just wait out the snowstorm.
The brightest thing in this entire forest, the fire, mesmerized me. Time simply seemed to stand still at this point. Then, just as quickly as the fire started, it was trampled by a fallen branch and the snow on top of it. I tried to salvage the fire, but that was the last of the firewood. I lit the rest of the matches, and I tried to hold on to them as they burned me, but I didn't care about my burning fingers at this point until it too went out due to the winds, and dropping the rest in the snow due to my trembling hands.
Then I just sat there in dread as the snow enveloped me. Could I have made better choices? I should've done this and I should've done that, but it was no use; what's done is done, and I’m left with my own thoughts. If I had to take something away from this experience, I would say that the cold doesn’t care who you are or what you’ve done, and no matter how smart you think you are, you are just along for the ride like everything else in this cold and cruel world. It may be unfair, but I guess that's just how it is. It left me feeling powerless and without a purpose, just blending into the background along with the trees and snow. As I was accepting my fate and trying to close my frozen eyes, I caught a glimpse of a big man with a bold mustache and heavy winter gear. Only a glimpse, because I would pass out a few moments later.
-To Be Continued
Be surprised if you actually read that but thanks if you did just wanted to put it somewhere hope you have a good day, night, afternoon, or evening
The changes were slow, little by little, so little that you wouldn’t even notice if you weren’t paying attention. I didn’t even notice the white starting to build up at my feet as my movements started to get more sluggish. The cold started to sting my feet as it traveled up my body. The snowfall started to pick up, and I began to notice it more. The cold started to soak through my thick, but apparently not thick enough, clothes. Then I realized I was not able to recognize the trail anymore. I couldn't even see two feet ahead of me. "I’m lost," a thought that would be quickly replaced with "I need to turn back." My rational self would tell me I need to stay calm and make calculated movements, but honestly, I might not have even been thinking at all, and it might just be my narrator self inserting thoughts for me now.
My thoughts started to get more and more scrambled. I can barely think, but there is one thought that my mind keeps circling back to: "I need heat." This obsession with heat would never come out in normal circumstances. I would say I’m pretty good with the cold, but this is a different pain and a different cold all together. I don't think I can go another five minutes like this. It really is getting to me. I think back to the beginning and my sled dog, and I wish I could just run away from this cold like he did. The snowy storm blurs my vision as I wipe the little snow I can, off my goggles, which just gets replaced the moment I take the snow off. My hair is now just icicles that just torture me by sticking to my skin and making it even colder. I start to run into the trees around me until I collapse on one of them.
I reached into my bag and pulled out the matches I brought. Since the trees slightly covered the snowfall, I thought that maybe, just maybe, I could get a little fire going. There were a few stray branches, and I pulled as hard as I could to get them together. The cold made it hard to move, so just pulling branches together was a hard task. My hands were shaky, so I pulled out a few matches. I tried as hard as I could to grip them to get any type of hold, then, in one violent motion, I lit it in total desperation. It was hot. I was almost tempted to let it just burn down to my fingertips, but alas, I tried to light the fire, and it worked. Now it doesn’t seem completely hopeless. I thought I could just wait out the snowstorm.
The brightest thing in this entire forest, the fire, mesmerized me. Time simply seemed to stand still at this point. Then, just as quickly as the fire started, it was trampled by a fallen branch and the snow on top of it. I tried to salvage the fire, but that was the last of the firewood. I lit the rest of the matches, and I tried to hold on to them as they burned me, but I didn't care about my burning fingers at this point until it too went out due to the winds, and dropping the rest in the snow due to my trembling hands.
Then I just sat there in dread as the snow enveloped me. Could I have made better choices? I should've done this and I should've done that, but it was no use; what's done is done, and I’m left with my own thoughts. If I had to take something away from this experience, I would say that the cold doesn’t care who you are or what you’ve done, and no matter how smart you think you are, you are just along for the ride like everything else in this cold and cruel world. It may be unfair, but I guess that's just how it is. It left me feeling powerless and without a purpose, just blending into the background along with the trees and snow. As I was accepting my fate and trying to close my frozen eyes, I caught a glimpse of a big man with a bold mustache and heavy winter gear. Only a glimpse, because I would pass out a few moments later.
-To Be Continued
Be surprised if you actually read that but thanks if you did just wanted to put it somewhere hope you have a good day, night, afternoon, or evening
Posted by Matt2tran | Nov 20, 2022 6:20 PM | 0 comments
February 20th, 2022
Rant
Anime Relations: Boku no Pico
Random Rant:
I’m just gonna talk out of my ass for a sec about this
https://xss.now.cc/manga/100448/Jumyou_wo_Kaitotte_Moratta_Ichinen_ni_Tsuki_Ichimanen_de
No spoilers: This manga really connected with me and it really faced me with the fears I’ve always dealt with. I’ve always felt no particular motivation for anything I do sure I have fun but nothing that I really have a passion for and I sometimes wonder is it always going to be like this.
I feel like life is so meaningless these days and I always hope that one day I find my motivation and accomplish all my dreams but I can’t really imagine that for myself. I just feel like that I’m gonna amount to nothing all my life bouncing from job to job just to end up alone in the end with nothing but mediocrity but at least in this manga they had someone to lean their shoulder on in the end but I just don’t see that actually happening to me.
I always keep my feelings to myself and don’t let anyone in I always tried to hold them in since I felt that they were all unneeded and unwanted so why show something like that.
So anyway I just wanted to rant for the sake of it since this manga really embodied all my fears about my future and sorry for getting all depressing if you actually read this hope all of you have a good day, night or afternoon.
I’m just gonna talk out of my ass for a sec about this
https://xss.now.cc/manga/100448/Jumyou_wo_Kaitotte_Moratta_Ichinen_ni_Tsuki_Ichimanen_de
No spoilers: This manga really connected with me and it really faced me with the fears I’ve always dealt with. I’ve always felt no particular motivation for anything I do sure I have fun but nothing that I really have a passion for and I sometimes wonder is it always going to be like this.
I feel like life is so meaningless these days and I always hope that one day I find my motivation and accomplish all my dreams but I can’t really imagine that for myself. I just feel like that I’m gonna amount to nothing all my life bouncing from job to job just to end up alone in the end with nothing but mediocrity but at least in this manga they had someone to lean their shoulder on in the end but I just don’t see that actually happening to me.
I always keep my feelings to myself and don’t let anyone in I always tried to hold them in since I felt that they were all unneeded and unwanted so why show something like that.
So anyway I just wanted to rant for the sake of it since this manga really embodied all my fears about my future and sorry for getting all depressing if you actually read this hope all of you have a good day, night or afternoon.
Posted by Matt2tran | Feb 20, 2022 12:01 AM | 0 comments
October 29th, 2021
Short Stories I’ve Wrote A long long time ago
Anime Relations: Boku no Pico
These are some short stories I’ve written a while ago if you want to read them I wouldn’t recommend though lmao
Crush’s Sake:
I swear I’m a normal sane person not like those lunatic criminals you see on TV, I’m just a normal guy. I was just trying to impress the one I loved. Everyone tries to do that right! I just went a little too far like most people do when they try to go over the top for their crush. I swear I’m a normal guy. People just want to live their lives and I want to live mine so why am I being locked up for this? I did nothing wrong obviously you should be catching the real criminals. She wanted this and I wanted it too so I killed the baby so what? She said that she wished she didn’t have it so I carved it out of her belly and she just happened to go to a better place. If anything I did her a favor. She wanted this. I swear those screams were screams of joy and she might’ve called me a stranger but I know she loved me back, I know she did, she had to have loved me back. My big showing of love must have been so great that her heart stopped and she fell for me. I swear she wanted this. I’ve been watching her for days. She said she didn’t want a baby so I cut it out of the picture. I had a copy of her key and everything it was like we were a couple before we even met. We were meant for each other and you know it but you don’t want to admit it. Now that I cleared that up will you escort me out? I have a date to attend, don't worry I’ll stop by the morg to pick her up like a gentleman.
Idk What To Call This I’m bad at naming things:
Chapter 1: A Nice Day In Hell
I saw it in the distance the island that I bought it was vast and green the old buildings were covered in overgrown plants and it was huge I thought this was gonna be some wasteland but it was beautiful but a growing thought kept gnawing at me why was it only five dollars when I got on the island I saw a cow in the distance I started to approach it then I saw it eating something and as I looked over its shoulder and I realized it was a human’s remains I stepped back in horror then I looked across the field and I realized a bunch of humans on the floor everyone on this island was being eaten by the animals.
Chapter 2: Run From Livestock
Clearly something on this island is making the animals crazy and I think it’s starting to affect me too, something is seriously off about this place. I’m hiding in one of the old buildings for now but it’s like they can sense me wherever I go, but I have a plan, I just have to go back to my boat and get off this island as fast as I can. I feel like I didn’t run too far from the edge of the island so I can probably make it in 6 minutes tops. Ok it’s time to run for my life I really really need to get off this island ready, set, go!
Chapter 3: Endless Loops
I’ve been running for hours, what the hell is happening? I've seen the same rocks and trees 100 times over. It doesn't make any sense.
unfinished
I don’t know if I should continue these or not but whatever
Crush’s Sake:
I swear I’m a normal sane person not like those lunatic criminals you see on TV, I’m just a normal guy. I was just trying to impress the one I loved. Everyone tries to do that right! I just went a little too far like most people do when they try to go over the top for their crush. I swear I’m a normal guy. People just want to live their lives and I want to live mine so why am I being locked up for this? I did nothing wrong obviously you should be catching the real criminals. She wanted this and I wanted it too so I killed the baby so what? She said that she wished she didn’t have it so I carved it out of her belly and she just happened to go to a better place. If anything I did her a favor. She wanted this. I swear those screams were screams of joy and she might’ve called me a stranger but I know she loved me back, I know she did, she had to have loved me back. My big showing of love must have been so great that her heart stopped and she fell for me. I swear she wanted this. I’ve been watching her for days. She said she didn’t want a baby so I cut it out of the picture. I had a copy of her key and everything it was like we were a couple before we even met. We were meant for each other and you know it but you don’t want to admit it. Now that I cleared that up will you escort me out? I have a date to attend, don't worry I’ll stop by the morg to pick her up like a gentleman.
Idk What To Call This I’m bad at naming things:
Chapter 1: A Nice Day In Hell
I saw it in the distance the island that I bought it was vast and green the old buildings were covered in overgrown plants and it was huge I thought this was gonna be some wasteland but it was beautiful but a growing thought kept gnawing at me why was it only five dollars when I got on the island I saw a cow in the distance I started to approach it then I saw it eating something and as I looked over its shoulder and I realized it was a human’s remains I stepped back in horror then I looked across the field and I realized a bunch of humans on the floor everyone on this island was being eaten by the animals.
Chapter 2: Run From Livestock
Clearly something on this island is making the animals crazy and I think it’s starting to affect me too, something is seriously off about this place. I’m hiding in one of the old buildings for now but it’s like they can sense me wherever I go, but I have a plan, I just have to go back to my boat and get off this island as fast as I can. I feel like I didn’t run too far from the edge of the island so I can probably make it in 6 minutes tops. Ok it’s time to run for my life I really really need to get off this island ready, set, go!
Chapter 3: Endless Loops
I’ve been running for hours, what the hell is happening? I've seen the same rocks and trees 100 times over. It doesn't make any sense.
unfinished
I don’t know if I should continue these or not but whatever
Posted by Matt2tran | Oct 29, 2021 7:34 PM | 1 comments