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whew, it actually feels like forever since I've been on here >_< how have you been? (I just finished finals and not gonna lie, it was probably the most stressful two weeks of my life, though that was mostly my fault for cramming again... haha.) I hope you've been well!

but!!!!!!!! CONGRATS ON GETTING INTO YOUR TOP CHOICE!!!! I'm so happy for you aaahh how did it feel? when I got into my top choice too-- it was such a great feeling... you're gonna kill it out there ;u;

heh, interviews will probably always stress me cause I'm actually pretty shy in person, and trying to "sell myself" to anyone always feels like I'm lying hhhhh :<<< but yes, definitely! do you plan to work during college or in summers?
ngl I smiled when you said that you were in a good mood-- it's so great for you, really. and it's a nice feeling to be excited for each other-- I was actually feeling a bit down after bombing my exams but reading your reply again and writing one out helps me remember what I'm aiming for, if that makes sense? so thank you, I think ;u;

LOL yeah, texas is pretty big-- though I had to look at a map to remind myself! I think americans find this funny, but in canada we don't really learn much about american geography, so my image of the US goes a bit like: there's california to the west, and new york in the northeast, and cowboys in the south and a vague blob of stuff in the middle. and mcdonalds everywhere...? it doesn't help I've never actually been south of the border except when I was really really little haha
and mm, I hope it works out with your family. is it just you and your parents? I definitely felt the same about leaving because my family had been my whole life by that point, I guess, and the moving out really felt like a movement towards independence. but you definitely will visit, and (for me at least) it always feels like I've never left :> good luck!

ahh I'm really glad talking to me has helped! Idk if I said this before but talking to you also helps me not lose sight of where I used to be, and it makes me think of my own future as well ;u; as for things to take... I only just moved out of my dorm for the summer, and packing up, I found that I'd actually taken too much with me? it was a pain to pack back up, I mean. I'd taken more clothes than I actually needed (and CLOTHES HANGERS, IT'S SO HARD TO PACK CLOTHES HANGERS), and it turned out a lot of the things I thought I should bring for sentimental reasons I didn't need as much as I thought? I got used to things there faster than I thought I would. maybe this isn't applicable for you, or maybe it is, but I wouldn't bring too many of my precious small things, because leaving them at home made sure home still felt like home when I got back...? kinda cheesy I know, hehe. but for practical items, the usual college checklists cover the gist of it, and if there is something you overlook, it'd make a nice first-day adventure to go out and buy it! (I say that because I'd forgotten notebooks myself, so I went out to the mall but got off at the wrong bus stop but it was fun because I found a petting zoo in the park I wouldn't have otherwise found!! there were llamas :D)

and as for sad anime... I had to go back and look at my list because man, it's been so long since I've seriously watched anime, and in the past I'd always skived off on the "classic" sad ones-- anohana, clannad after story. man I really should get to those. I do recall angel beats being devastating when I watched it haha. jun maeda's work is always like that-- the trio of Air, kanon and clannad. and shigatsu wa kimi no uso didn't quite make me cry, but the final episode was just really beautifully constructed. (talking about this reminds me how I should reaaally try watching anime again after the super-long hiatus) and oh!! this isn't an anime, but I did get myself reading again recently, and I finished the book thief a while ago... have you read it?

hehe, I'll try to drop by more often now, especially since I'm done with school (for four months) ^^;; I hope you're doing well too, hang in there for the last few months of high school!!

ohhh my gosh, it's been almost a month hasn't it... it doesn't really feel like that long to me, actually, everything from the past month feels like a big blur to me >_< but my midterms are (mostly) over and I'm on reading break now, so! it feels nice to be sitting here replying to you again ^^

historical fiction, huh? interesting! I'm not much of a history buff, it was so hard for me to stay awake back when I took it in school haha. but I guess that has to do with the way they taught it-- I feel like there are a lot of interesting stories in history if they're framed correctly. anyway yeah, despite that, I always appreciate when a story has an interesting setting that's different from the typical modern life, and idk especially in anime where like 90% of everything takes place in a japanese school lol. I'll definitely put it on my list! I don't think I've watched anything like it before :o

mmmmm kiki, it's actually my favourite movie ever, like ever ;-; (actually, if you were to watch it now it would kind of fit, since the movie is about a girl moving away from home for the first time, and you've said you're probably going to be moving out soon as well, aha)

wah thanks!! I've had my first job interviews in my life over the past month, and now that I've done a few I feel much better about them. and yeah, computer science/coding definitely takes getting used to if you're doing it for the first time, and it takes a certain type of thinker to like it? there's a lot of logical thinking! but I find the focus on problem-solving to be very fun, and I like the course work even though I complain about the course load ^^;;
psych huh? that's really cool! I'm taking psych 101 as an elective now-- actually back in grade 9, I wanted to do psych too... actually it's kind of embarrassing, but when you mentioned wanting to be a counselor, I remembered I wanted to be one at that time... because I'd read this evangelion fanfic where there was this counselor who helped the characters through their tough times, and I thought it was so cool that there's a path where it's your job to help people in that way... I realized later I'm not quite cut out for that sort of thing, but yes, it is a really cool field! and I wish you the best of luck! in getting where you want to be/finding where you want to be. :)

oh wow, that far south huh? so northeast US is pretty far from where you are! is it like, flying distance? it's much further than the distance between my school and home--it's just over an hour's drive for me. I was really lucky to live so close so in first term... I guess I was a bit of a baby and I bussed back home pretty much every other weekend :') but it seems you wouldn't be able to visit nearly that often, so it'll be a much more real away-from-home experience for you? :O
:''D I'm excited for you too! you're going to go through the same things-- it's definitely a huge transition, and there are going to be a lot of things that are new to you, but I hope that you take advantage of them and enjoy them! best of luck, kouhai :>

Ahh, english books huh? I wonder what kind of books you guys read... in high school my selection of books was kind of boring, haha. it's a nice image though, to sit in silence next to someone and reading... :)

w anytime, I like reading when people talk about their favourite shows-- the passion is infectious ;w; I hope that when I watch it, we can talk more about it then!
intersting, le chevalier d'eon hasn't been on my radar-- would you recommend it? and erased is a good show to watch in the winter I feel like, especially if there's snow outside. sometimes I just... associate certain shows with certain seasons, if that makes sense. and teen wolf... I don't think I have an opinion on that one, haha. ._. but I see about madoka, but when you do get around to it let me know!

OOOOHHH WOLf children gosh that was one of the only movies to make me cry, gosh I can't, but yes, that's almost too perfect a movie to watch with your mother ;u; it's by the same director as the girl who leapt through time, so those two movies alone were enough to push him up my favourites list. I definitely get that about watching something a while ago but not realizing how good it is until you're older-- that was me with kiki's delivery service, because I didn't relate with her troubles with growing up until I was at the same stage of life myself-- but ANYway, yes!! it's been a while since I watched tokikake which is good because I've probably forgotten a lot of details which will make my rewatch more fresh. I loved the innocence of the movie, how you go along with her life and I just love Makoto as a character, she's so charming, but then the plot kicks in and ;_; I feel like it's a movie that really appreciates the small things in life, you know? the small things that make living worthwhile, and the things that are sadly inevitable. it's such a wonderful movie, I'm glad you loved it too ;n;

I'm doing my best!! (I-I think...) I'm applying for jobs right now, cause my program is a work-study program and I'm supposed to work over the summer but I feel like it's way too early for a baby like me to enter the dark corporate world, but yeah :'D I'm in computer science! I don't think I ever asked you what programs you applied to?
mm, tips huh... well it's probably obvious, but don't slack on your work! it's so tempting to just stay in bed in the morning, but going to class really helps... I learned that the hard way haha. hm, are you going to be leaving home and living in a dorm or something? it was my first time living away from home, so if you have any questions about that? I have a hard time with homesickness sometimes :< and -- I'm not sure how big the school/program you're applying to is, but I found it pretty hard to make friends in my classes, because they were so big and even if I talked with someone one day, next time they'd be sitting on the other end of the hall and it was very unlike high school where everyone knew each other. so it's good to stay in a dorm because there's more of a sense of community there-- if not, clubs are also good places to meet people! (um, like school clubs, not bar clubs, haha) but yeah, other than the rigour of the learning material (srsly the math went from 0 to 94802850 cries) I feel like that was the biggest difference between uni and high school.
if there's anything else you might want to ask about, I'll try to be a senpai to you hehe :'D good luck!!

hey again!! sorry it's been awhile, but how were your holidays? I hope they were good! I tried to relax as much as possible, myself, but now it's back to schhhooooool :|

ahh about relaxing shows-- it's so great when I'm running low on energy to watch a show I'm not horribly invested in but is still just fun to watch? like a 7-8 tier show... I really love shows that are just reliably relaxing in that way, not too ambitious but just good at what they do, you know? I think noragami is one of those shows for me-- for that reason I'd really like a 3rd season ;u;

hehe splashes of warm water, huh? that's an interesting way to describe a show but a good way, I think. I feel like I get what you mean! from what you said and what I've heard a lot of others say, it made a LOT of people emotional?? I'm intrigued to say the least. from the way you talk about it, I kinda feel like osomatsu-san is to you what k-on is to me, haha. but yes, it's definitely on my shortlist, I'd like to be there when everyone gets hyped up for season 2!

ahh, how was your time with your friend? did you end up watching madoka, or some other shows perhaps? I hope she's doing well and stuff!

sorry again for the really belated reply orz;;; couldn't help but probe into your history though and noticed you've watched the girl who leapt through time in the interim? and it seems you liked it? a lot? ahaha it's just, it's one of my absolute favourites (I love it a lot a lot a lot) so since it was so recent for you-- what did you think of it? :o

thanks!! and ooh, march huh? can I ask which country you're applying in? for me in the canada, some universities didn't reply until the very end of may which was quite nerve-wracking LOL but yes, soak in the fact that you're done with appliyng! treat yourself with some donuts and a good show or two, you deserve it!! :'D

ah, Noragami huh? yeah, I actually found it a little overhyped myself, now that you mention it! I still enjoyed it a lot, it was very solid, but it didn't do anything exceptional like some people thought. it was more shounen than they made it seem; I went in expecting a more serious show, if you know what I mean. I do love the characters though! Yato and Yukine and Hiyorin are the most loveable trio of friends ;w;
as for osomatsu-san, omggg I saw that all over twitter when it aired, everyone loved it and I was a bit confused-- I was like, who are these eight uniquely-designed little boys crawling all over my timeline?? Heh I kept wanting to check it out but I never found the time! I need to get to it soon, so I know what everyone's talking about, and if I'm not wrong there's going to be a second season? and it's always great when a show strengthens your bonds with your friends ;u;

ooh, do tell me what you think of madoka on your second run! hehe, I've thought that rewatching shows from a long time ago is like time travel, almost haha. for me at least, it's one of the best ways to connect with the feelings of my past self. It's some great opportunity for self-reflection aha

;o; send your friend well wishes from me! it's great that you're going to get so much time together, I hope you have fun! and it'll be interesting to see her reactions to madoka hehe, when I watched it with my sister I liked seeing her face of shock at some of the twists :>

"great taste" aaahh you flatter me lolol
and you too! have a great week with your friend!! :)

hana huh? alright then, nice to meet you hana~!
yeah, I feel... perhaps for me though, the greater stress wasn't in preparing the applications, but in waiting for the results :') I was constantly refreshing the result pages for months lol... do you know when it is you're likely to get a response from the schools?

mm, yes, I usually find that the greater attention is paid to a character's pain, the better-written they are? more fleshed-out, more thoughtfully put together... I think that people are often best defined by what pains them, and watching a character go through all sorts of different phases of life makes them more sympathetic to me...? it's like, I know their secrets, and once they've developed I've spent so much time with them, they really feel like almost my friend or something... it's especially poignant if I've been through precisely what that character is dealing with.
haha, I was just rambling there, but yeah, I hope this isn't too pathetic but when I end a show with the characters feeling like my friends, it becomes a very dear show to me ;w;

OK I ACTUally relate to what you said about madoka in a way. Back when I first watched it, I think I was convinced myself that it was this wonderful perfect thing similar to your friend. I read an essay or two written by a guy who really liked it, and I think I was a bit too influenced by his opinion back then. I actually forced my sister through the first three episodes, convinced she would realize it was so amazing after that first twist, but she didn't want to continue and I was pretty surprised and upset lol.
Anyway, I'm pretty sure that I didn't so much like it as convince myself I liked it. I think it's a show that relies on its surprises and twists, you know? It has way more impact if you go in expecting a sparkly sunshine show. That's why it didn't have as much impact on its second, third watch for me. And on a related note, I find the expectations you have of a show before you go in can have a HUGE impact on my experience. If you go in expecting too much, you're more likely to end with "well, that was good, but not a masterpiece like everyone told me it'd be." (That was me with Steins;Gate...) Likewise, if you go in not expecting much, you'll be pleasantly surprised, right? That's why, while I used to actively search for shows that I thought would suit my tastes, these days I always try to go into something as blind as possible. I just like to savour the moment when I realize for myself, "hey, this show is actually really, really good."
Anyway, yes, what I'm saying is, I totally understand your experience with Madoka. Actually my favourite character was Sayaka--I loved her drive and enthusiasm and her heroism and her nobility and her sacrifice pained me so much omg. I found that her story and Madoka's relationship with her mom were the two things for which my opinion didn't change on rewatch. I still think it's a wonderfully constructed show that does a lot for other people, but I've realized it didn't do as much for me.
It's always interesting to revisit a show and see how your current opinion compares with the old you! If you do decide to rewatch it, you could just go with the first two movies, since they're pretty much the same as the show. The third movie is... well, we can talk about that if you ever do watch it ;)

hehe I think my answer is longer... I apologize ;w; And thanks!! My last exam went... alright, and now I'm on break... I should be productive, but I think I'll take just a few days off, hehe.

AAGGH FRUSTrated cause I accidentally closed the tab in the middle of replying, ugh MAL why u no autosave

but ANYWAYYY, hello! I actually mostly forgot about that message I sent back then, so it was a pleasant surprise to see this in my inbox ;u; No worries at all about the timing, in fact these past 6 months have felt like about a week in my busy life :< it's actually my first year of university and it's been... well I just failed half my exams, but, um, yeah! I was where you were last year, with the applications and stuff ;w; it'll work out, so good luck!

Yess, Bokurano isn't the most known show in the world, so I don't know anyone who's actually heard of it lol. And even if I told my friends to watch it, they probably wouldn't see it like I did... So I chanced a stranger on the internet, hehe~ and shinsekai yori, gosh that's competing for my favourite show of all time and I can't think about it without getting a little emotional, honestly ;o; that ending, man. gave me chills for days. It was so thrilling and emotional and insightful at the same time aaahhh no I can't think about it now or I'll get too distracted for my last exam tomorrow lol
Hmm, looking at your favourites, I've watched Death Parade, Kiznaiver, BokuMachi and Bokurano, of course. It's really good taste in my (biased) opinion hehe... It seems... you like... suffering :'D well those shows all had a large bit of suffering, but imo their suffering had good payoff in the end lolol. Though I haven't watched a proper Suffering show in forever, I gotta emotionally prepare myself for those lol
Curious though, what you thought of Madoka? Just, I rewatched it recently and found it didn't resonate with me as strongly as it did before. I was trying to figure out what was missing... so what did you think of it?

Man, it's nostalgic to talk about anime. I haven't done that in ages, all I say these days is complaining about how I'm gonna fail and discussing the math answers with my friends HAHA. Anyway, nice to meet you-- what should I call you? hanako, sasaki? you can call me novaki, or nova, or anything really! so yes, really nice to meet you! I hope we get along well and stuff ;w;)/

yo hi so I know this is really random, but I just finished (re)watching Bokurano and it left a really big impression on me, as it did you. I was looking through the reviews for it and stumbled on yours, and thought "yo saaaame". yours stood out because of how you said you like character focus, because that's my shit too. I thought it was great someone else was as impressed with Ushiro's development as I was. He became really sympathetic to me, not like he wasn't already from the beginning. I really like how the show was so sympathetic towards its characters? A lot of people call it a cruel show, but I think it's the opposite-- even as horrible things happen to its characters, overall its message is hopeful. I don't understand people who don't understand that T^T I really love a story that understands that the world is a cruel place, but knows that doesn't mean the world isn't a wonderful place. That's what I felt Bokurano was trying to say, among many other things.

So, yeah, Bokurano is awesome. When I clicked on your profile, I found a few things I could relate to, like the disassociation thing and the writing thing-- sorry if this is intrusive-- but let's be friends or something! Lately I've wanted more people to talk about anime with, but it's so hard to approach people sometimes OTL but I thought we have similar tastes in shows, or at least, look for the same things in shows. So, um, yeah!

Hello there! If you like animes where tragic things happen to the characters then try rainbow, here and there now and then, and mahou shoujo madoka magica! Theyre all within that category that you described!

Here's a great movie by Studio Ghibli about a young woman who wants to be a writer.
Whisper of the Heart

Hi hanakosasaki,
Thought your review of Bokurana was pretty good. I had the same emotional reaction to it and it haunted me for days.

I did want to comment on your profile where you said you want to be a writer but that dream will never work out for you. Why would you say that? Don't worry about what people think of your writing, just write to please yourself. Most people fail because they don't keep at it and give up.